hey people!
have being age since i last blog i think. i doubt no one will be reading anyway (because i didn't update and no one will spend the effort to read as they know that it going to be waste of few more clicking to my blog.) nvm. i will still blog whenever i'm free. Seriously, i am free when times but simply forget about blogging and stuff. I have pretty a lot of stuff t be remember in my brain. Too much is left undone, too much is left forgoten.
My TP is round the corner, in less then 10days. i must pass! GOD, please show me your sympathy. i seriously need to pass this test and get a job if not i really need to get money from mummy. Sometime i feel so bad when asking money from mummy. Have being thinking that both my brother have not been taking money from Secondary 2(when they start to work Part time). And i am the only one still taking money from her, i feel that i am useless, lazy, ambitious, dreaming and lots of feeling in it. After Poly started, i feel that i have over spend a lot. I got wakeboarding, bike lesson, chilling out with friends(Brother) and more. I just couldn't understand why i spend so much when i never buy things for 4months. i couldn't understand this maybe is G.S.T increase and price of food and everything seem to be increase yet i still have not notice.
I read about year of snake will have bad luck and "fan tai shui". Somehow, somewhere i start to believe it. Everything don't come smoothly for me, i swear. i use to be very careful with my cash yet i have lost a few time this year. i may sound "money minded" but is that fact that in this relistic world, "no money no talk". For now (and no more!) i hope i will have a smooth road. Why do i sound like i am so poor? there is someone poorer then me yet they are happy with it and why not me? i bet that they are content with what they have and not me. i know myself will never get content. i got mix feeling now. real bad. stupid feeling that i am very useless. i know i am he youngest in the family and that why everything is going toward me but my brother all suck. they don't share their things and didn't talk to each other for more then five sentenses. sometime i really envy those friends of mine that they can communicate with their brother well, parent well. but my family all communicate with just money. my birthday no one remember but only mummy and i got no present at all. i feel that i got no friends, no family. I WANT TO SHIFT OUT AND LEAVE ALONE! i mean it! i think i will move out by next year. have been asking my mum to shift to five room flat so that i got my own room where by i can do all the decorating, sound system, TV, computer and some arts in my room. but the end result alway, " deng ni de da ge ban chu qu ni jiu you fang jian le." i got so piss off over this. Although i seem to be youngest and got the most, but they will look down on me (especially my brother). everytime he will ask," Bike liscense passed already?". they got a lot to say anyway.
god bless me to pass my TP and start working so that i can shift out by next year. i will hope that he let me strike the lottery and forget about everything! but hope cannot be trusted.
evil drift away
.....i may sound emo but i am not because i want to prove them wrong!!!
drummingaway
